Update 2

I was sitting in the cafe coffee day waiting for the person namely Sameer Maheshwari to come. The name itself showed positivity but didn’t know what to believe. The famous saying says ‘didn’t judge the book by its cover’, his name may give a positive vibe but he may not be a positive person in my life. Didn’t know what future holds for me but I would try not to think negatively. If I want to have a fresh start to my life then I should refrain myself from thinking negatively. After waiting for half an hour finally, someone came to the table other than the waiter. The waiter was also tired returning without noting the order.

 

“Hi I am Sameer Maheshwari and you must be Naina, Naina Agarwal right?”

 

The moment I saw him I stopped breathing. I kept starring at him. He was in my school in fact we were in the same batch and most importantly, he was my first crush. I cannot believe he is the same person. He was still looking charming in fact he was looking much handsome than before. Is this a sign from my destiny that everything would now be all right? Will I get the much-awaited happiness in my life?

 

I thought ‘Naina calm down, you know if you are happy surely something bad will happen so didn’t be happy. Didn’t raise your hopes naina nothing good can happen in your life ‘.

 

“Hello Naina aap kaha kho gayi hai” Sameer asked while waving his hand in front of her eyes.

 

Naina came back to reality and to divert the topic she said “huh kahiin bhi toh nahiin bas vo umm coffee lenge aap”. I asked nervously. May be he hasn’t recognized me yet but it’s ok because I was never popular in school. I mean I was never known by my face but I was the topper in my batch so people knew my name but not many would remember my face or my name either. Once people are out of school they didn’t remember the face of people whom they never used to talk with. Out of sight out of mind should be the perfect phrase for such thing.

 

He smiled seeing my nervousness and then we ordered two cups of coffee. After the waiter left taking our order for some snacks and two cups of coffee, there was silence all over again. I had no idea how to start the conversation, I looked at him hoping he would say something but alas, his look said he was waiting for me to say something. I had prepared a single question that would give me all my answers. The question was “do you believe in spreading happiness?” A yes to it would give me a satisfaction or rather hope that I would smile and would be happy in my new life.

 

I had decided to ask only this question as I didn’t wanted to know anything else, my main priority was to know if he would keep me happy or not. A no would shatter all my dreams and also the last ray of hope but it would warn me that I shouldn’t expect anything, I shouldn’t dream of happy life.

 

I was so lost in thinking that I didn’t realize the waiter brought our order. I heard him saying ‘thank you’ to the waiter. His voice was still melodious.

 

After the waiter left, he looked at me and smiled. I too smiled seeing him smiling. He saw me smiling so he asked me “have you done just bachelors or did masters too”.

 

“I have done Masters in English and currently I am working on my sixth book.

 

“Oh that’s good so would you like to continue writing story books or would like to shift and start writing for some newspaper or magazine?”

 

“Oh no I would like to continue writing story books” I replied with a smile on my face.

 

I saw him smiling at my answer I didn’t know whether he liked my answer or not, I mean I didn’t know what he was expecting from me but I was honest from my side. I know its not a stable job neither has

 

Fixed income but if he does not mind it then I would love to continue doing this. But if he has objections I didn’t know how I was going to react to it. I couldn’t see myself writing for some newspaper or magazine. If I had to do that, I would have done that already. Hope he has no objections and asks me to change my job. He asked his question and now was my turn to ask him a question, but I have no courage to ask him. Again, for one-minute silence prevailed between us, none of us spoke and the situation was getting awkward.

 

I guess he was waiting for me to speak something but I lacked courage. How am I supposed to tell him this? Finally, he broke the silence and said something. But what he said shocked me completely.

 

“If you want to ask something then please feel free to ask me because we are here to decide our future and if we won’t talk how will we decide our future” he said.

 

Hearing him, I thought ‘nothing happens according to my wish no matter how much I pray to god he never listens to me. But he is right we will have to talk only then we can decide our future’. Finally, I gathered some courage to ask him and I was about to ask him when his phone started ringing.

 

He looked at the caller and then excused himself. He went outside to talk. May be it was something personal and he did not wanted to talk in front of me. I waited for him to return for next three to four minutes. In the meantime, I was sipping my coffee and munching few snacks. In between, I was also trying to gather some courage so that I can ask my question.

 

Finally after three to four minutes, I saw him walking towards the table. He sat on his seat and sipped his coffee that had arrived during his absence. Before I could ask him a question, he surprised me by asking me a question.

 

“Do you believe in controlling or interfering in other’s life?” His question completely took me off guard.

 

I did not know what actually he wanted to know, but I’ll be honest with my answer. I didn’t know why but this question was kind of giving me a negative vibe.

 

However, ignoring everything I replied him “controlling ya interfering ka haq sirf unka hota hai jinhe hum yeh haq dete hain or yeh haq hum sirf unhe dete hain jinhe hum apna mante hain kyunki hum jante hain ki jisse hum yeh haq de rahe hain vo hamara bura nahiin sochega or agar hum yeh haq kissi ko na de toh vo insaan chahkar bhi apki life main interfere ya control nahiin kar sakta”.

 

After finishing it, I saw he was smilingly sipping his coffee. He asked two questions and now I am supposed to ask him but again his next sentence snatched all my courage of asking him a question.

 

“Uumm Naina I have to go somewhere, can we meet again tomorrow if in case you want to ask something,” he said.

 

All the courage that I had mustered up went in drain but if I looked from another side this could be destiny’s hint that I should not ask him this question at this moment. May be this was not a good time to ask him. I saw him looking at me with hopeful eyes I smiled in return.

 

“Yeah sure” I said unsure of what my destiny wants from me because I know whatever would happen it won’t be in my favour.

 

He finished his coffee and after paying the bill, he left though I wanted to pay for my cup of coffee but he refused saying he would pay, as he was the one cut shorting our meet. Finally, I gave up and let him pay the bill. After he left, I too stood up and started walking when I heard Munna and Swati’s voice. I turned and looked at them. They looked at me with ‘what was going on’ look. I gulped seeing those looks. The look also meant that I had a lot of explaining to do. Sigh.