Update 17

(Sameer’s POV)

Two months passed ever since naina left me. I tried finding Naina in these two months but the results were always negative. It seemed like she was keeping her promise of not coming in front of me. I was sitting on the sofa when I remembered something. I looked towards the ceiling like Naina used to do and closed my eyes and wished ‘God please fulfill all her wishes but not the one of meeting me. Please God hear me I want to meet her for once and see if she is fine or not please God’. This wish I had been asking from past two months, hoping that some good news would come from somewhere about Naina’s whereabouts.

After I opened my eyes I looked at the house, it was still the same but something was missing. Ever since Naina left the house I never intended to change anything, everything was kept in the same place as it was before Naina left. In this house I always felt her presence and also it made me guilty that she wanted me to remove her pain but sadly instead of removing her pain I added more pains for her.

In these two months that passed away, my mom dad returned from their trip but didn’t meet me. There was so much inside me that I wanted to share with them but when they refused to meet me in person I couldn’t muster up the courage to walk up to them and tell. Though they did call me every day to check whether I was fine or not. My frustration level kept increasing with each passing day and I had no idea how to reduce it. Sometimes my head used to pain like hell and many a times I had to take a medicine because it was that unbearable.

One day after gathering lots of courage I had told my mom the entire truth and I clearly remembered her wordings which were “Sameer mujhe nahiin pata mien kya kahu beta kahi baar jo hume sahi lagta hai vo kisi or ke liye zindagi bhar ka dukh ban sakta hai or vahi hua na naina ke liye ye zindagi bhar ka gham ban gaya hai. Tu ab jitni bhi koshish karle vo waqt vo pal vapas nahiin aa sakte jo dill pe chot lagi hai usse mitana toh namumkin hai agar koshish karni hi hai toh itni karna ki vo yeh sab bhool sakke. Tune jo galti ki hai usse beta sirf tu hi sudhaar sakta hai. Anjane main tune apne pyar ko hi hurt kar diya or kehte hain anjane main ki gayi galti bhagwaan bhi maaf kar dete hain or phir to yeh Naina hai jiska dill boht saaf hai vo tujhe samjhegi bhi or maaf bhi karegi. Jiss din Naina ko tu vapas le ayega uss din iss ghar main hamesha ke liye kadam rakhna apne pyaar ke saath or yahan ek nayee zindagi shuru karna. I’ll wait for my son and daughter in law to come back in this house for ever”.

I was sitting at the dinning table and was sipping coffee when suddenly the bell rang. I knew who it would be. I stood up and opened the door smilingly but after seeing their dejected expressions on their faces my face fell. The smile which was there on my face few seconds back was now replaced by a sullen face.

I moved aside and walked towards the drawing room and sat on the sofa. I covered my face with my palms.

“Sameer there is no news of Naina” said a male voice.

“Your facial expressions already told me that” I replied back.

“Wow ab bada facial expressions samaj ate hain jab samajhna chahiye tha tab kya kar rahe the” said another voice.

“Swati chup kar na” Male voice said.

“Dekh munna mujhe chup hone ko mat bol samjha na or Sameer yeh yaad rakhna I am helping you because you love Naina and she loves you and above all she deserves happiness, love and care which she was deprived off in her entire life. She had no one whom she could call her family, I want her to have her own family which I know she is craving for from long time, otherwise what you did I don’t think I would have helped you” Swati said.

I removed my palms from my face and looked at Swati. Silence prevailed in the room.

I stared at an empty space and said “I know Swati tum mujhse boht naraaz ho or hona bhi chahiye miene tumhari best friend ka dill jo dukhaya hai but honestly believe me agar mujhe pehle pata hota ki Naina vahi ladki hai jisse mien pyaar karta hoon or itne waqt se dhoond raha tha toh usse kabhi dukh dena toh door kabhi usse anjane main bhi hurt nahiin karta. Pata nahiin jab Naina se miloonga toh vo mujhe maaf karegi bhi ki nahiin meri zindagi main lautegi bhi ki nahiin lekin itna zaroor janta hoon ki vo mere life main vapas aye ya na aye uski zindagi main khushiyaan zaroor bhar doonga”.

Swati and Munna looked at me and I was looking towards the room in which Naina used to stay.

“I still didn’t understand why you lied to her about your love?” Munna said.

I looked at Munna and said “and how many times should I tell you the answer for it?”

“Because we still can’t believe it you lied for that stupid reason” Munna replied.

“look I am telling you this for the last time I was not ready for the marriage as I was still searching the girl whom I had fallen in love with during the school days but the agreement between my dad and Rakesh uncle forced me to agree for this marriage. I still remember that day when I had returned home” I started narrating my story once again for munna and swati.

FLASHBACK

Like everyday I returned home but today I was very upset as I was very close to finding the girl whom I love the most but unfortunately the detective that I had hired for searching that girl whom I love met with an accident due to which he was on ventilator. My world crashed after I heard the news, I had no idea how to react. I was numb, I was blank basically I had gone through several emotions at that time that I myself don’t remember.

No matter how I felt I had to go to office and work otherwise it would have affected the company. But still I was in a very bad mood today after that news and due to that my employees had to face my wrath. Poor employees they had no idea why I was irritated today or why was I shouting at their smallest of their mistakes.

While I was driving back home I had decided to hire a new detective and hand him over all the information that was collected by the previous detective. May be like him, this new detective would be able to find that girl whom I love.

But when I entered my house I saw Rakesh uncle shaking hands with my father. May be some new deal they must have cracked together. But Rakesh uncle’s words took me off guard.

“Bhabhi rishta pakka hi samjhiye aap, aap meethai nahiin khilayngi” Rakesh uncle said.

I stared at my parents and Rakesh uncle. I was so confused were they talking about marriage wala rishta? Hope not but wait my parents knew I love someone else how could they agree for this without asking me that was not fair.

“Arey Sameer tu aa gaya beta aa ither aa aaj Rakesh apni beti Naina ka rishta tere liye laye hain or humne rishte ke liye hain kar di” my father Bobby Maheshwari said it proudly.

I looked at my mother who was smiling while looking at me. How could my parents agree for this marriage proposal when they clearly knew that I love someone else not only that but I was also finding her day and night? Before I could speak anything Rakesh uncle said he would leave and start with the marriage preparations.

After Rakesh uncle left I looked at my parents and said “what was that you know I love someone else and also finding her day and night. How you can fix my marriage with someone else? Look mom dad I am very close to finding her if my detective wouldn’t have met with an accident I would have found her by now. I’ll hire a new detective and find her soon don’t fix my marriage now please”.

“Sameer hum jante hain ki tu apne pyaar ko dhoond raha ha lekin beta ab boht ho gaya teri shaadi ki umar nikali jaa rahi hai” my mother vishakha said.

“Or tu naya detective karega phir usse paanch saal or lagenge uss ladki ko dhoondne main or kya pata jab vo mile uski shaadi ho chuki ho? Tab tu kya karega?” my father billy said.

I was dumbfounded after hearing my father. Before starting my search I never gave a thought about it what if she was already married and was living a happy life? But still I wouldn’t stop my search after coming so far. I didn’t know why I felt she also loved me and might be waiting for me as well.

“Mom I don’t know anything I’ll find her please call Rakesh uncle and say this marriage won’t happen” I said in an irritated tone.

“Sameer this marriage will happen at any cost. Your marriage with Naina will unite two families and we are also thinking of merging our companies with Agarwal companies above all your marriage will be the talk of the town which will help our business too” my father bobby said in an authoritative tone and then left the place.

I was starring at the retreating figure of my father when I heard my mother saying “Sameer please shaadi ke liye hain kar de bacha. Mujhe tere sir pe sehra dekhna hai beta please hain kar de tujhe meri kasam hai”

“Fine agar apko yahi chahiye hai toh mien mana nahiin karoonga mien shaadi karoonga lekin mien ab iss ghar main nahiin rahoonga” saying so I left for my room.

I didn’t even turned and saw whether my mom was shocked or not but I was so hurt by their action that I straight went to my room and started packing my bags. I left the house without meeting my father, mom tried to stop me but I was very firm with my decision that I didn’t give a second thought and from then on I started living separately in an apartment.

I called my friends pandit, kamya, kartik, sunaina and Hema. We were all sitting in my new house. I had called them to tell them my decision and everything that happened at home. It is said that when you are in pain you should share you feelings you feel light and I for the first time wanted to try it. The pain was hurting me too much, I spent five years searching for my love and when I was close to finding her everything fell apart. My life suddenly changed its direction, the one I was not ready to walk on.

“Guys its final mien shaadi kar raha hoon or isse nibhaonga bhi issi liye mien ab mere pyaar ki search nahiin karoonga”

“Sameer tu pagal ho gaya hai tu jisse pyaar karta hai ussi se shaadi bhi kar thoda wait kar tujhe mil jayegi vo” pandit said.

“pandit mom ne mujhe apni kasam di hai or mien usse nibhaonga, or shaadi ke baad agar mien apne pyaar ki search karoonga toh vo galat hoga iss liye mien ab sab kuch bhulake aage badhne ki koshish karoonga. Lekin pata nahiin kyun mera dill kehta hai ki mujhe apne pyaar ko dhoondna chahiye, dill or dimaag main boht hi gehri jung chal rahi hai samaj nahiin aa raha kiski sunu. Shadi toh hogi kyunki papa ke liye yeh ab ek deal hai jisse vo khona nahiin chahenge or sahi bhi hai kyun ki dimaag bhi yahi kehta hai ki business ki soch kitne ghar or parivaar jude huye hain kitno ki zindagi iss company ke tarakki pe nirbhar karti hai. Vahin dill kehta hai apne baare main soch apni khushi ke baare main soch, yeh zindagi bhar ka vada hai jisse saari zindagi nibhana hain sari zindagi ki khushiyan kaise jane doon. Samjhote wale rishte ajeeb hi hote hain mujhe samjhote ka rishta nahiin chahiye. Isi liye bualaya tum sabko you guys tell kya karu mien? Dill or dimaag main dill ki sunni chahiye aisa sab kehte hain per chunne ke baad kya? Agar deal tooti or company ko nuksaan hua toh un lakhon logo ka bhi nuksan hoga dill toh vaise bhi khush nahiin reh payega poori tarah se. samaj nahiin aa raha boht confused hoon pata nahiin jo bol raha hoon vo sense bhi bana rahe hain ki nahiin” I said in a confused tone.

“Tujhe aise kabhi nahiin dekha sameer” pandit said in a concerned voice.

All of them were quiet for few seconds as none of them knew what to say. They kept starring at each other hoping someone would say something that would work as a medicine in this situation.

“Sameer tu ek kaam kar shaadi ki pehli raat ko tu uss ladki se boliyo you love some one agar usne kaha ki she’ll help you in uniting with your love then saari problem solve ho jayegi after marriage you can still find your love and you’ll still have a hope of spending a life with your love” kartik said

“Matlab shadi karu? Usne mana kar diya help karne se toh? Vo chod agar usne kaha ki mujhe uss ladki se milna hai toh mien kya boloonga usse ki mujhe khud nahiin pata ki vo kaha hai”

“Shadi ke alawa option kya hai aunty bhi saath nahiin de rahi. Agar usse milna hoga toh tu usse hema se milwa dena usse thodi pata hoga ki herma teri cousin hai” kamya said.

“Hain or vaise bhi vo tujhe sweet heart darling hi bulati hai” sunaina said and started giggling.

“Hain toh bhai hai hi sweet heart or darling sahi pet name diya hai miene unhe” hema said.

“Fine its decided agar uss ladki ne kaha ki she’ll help you in uniting with your love hema will become that girlfriend ok” Kartik said and I smiled.

My friends planning was giving me some hope that I could still be with my love. I chose to listen to my heart but still my heart wasn’t feeling happy.

FLASHBACK ENDS

“You were mad who asked you to listen to your friends” Swati asked.

“Swati I followed my heart and their suggestion complimented with my heart feelings. At that time I was just thinking about finding my love I know I became selfish but have you heard a line called everything is fair in love and war” I said.

“You never even thought for once that the girl whom you’ll marry what will happen to her? You do know na that a divorced girl has to face so much in the society? No one marries a divorce girl so easily you know that or not? You were spoiling someones life dammit” Swati said in an angry voice.

“Swati I was so happy when my friends suggested this idea that I never thought about its consequences and when Naina said she’ll help me in uniting with my lover I was so happy that I didn’t think about anything else. But as time started passing I realized my mistake and started feeling guilty. I was about to tell her the truth after hearing about her from you guys. But that day when Naina took me to the school I realized she is the same girl I am searching for, she is the same girl I love I was so happy that day but after hearing her pain I was shocked and I didn’t know how to react or what to say. My brain was thinking something else and my heart was happy. By the time reality struck me she had left. She left from there, when I returned home I realized her things were not there and kept hoping one day I would meet her” i said.

Before Swati could speak anything Munna said “guys whats done is done we can’t change the past but we can surely improve the present and future. Let’s find Naina and bring her back”.

I and Swati looked at Munna and nodded our heads in agreement. Its time to find Naina, I couldn’t wait for the day when I would see her and confess my love for her but before that I would clear all her doubts.